First and foremost I would like to thank each and every single one of you for taking the time to read my previous blog post. I had no idea my blog post would mean so much to so many people. I can’t tell you how many emails, Facebook messages, comments and tweets I have received from both men and women. I was absolutely gobsmacked when I saw how many of you can relate to what I am going through. And I am so humbled and blessed to have so many people in my life who genuinely care about me (even though we’ve never met in person before). I guess the world wide web has both positive and negative aspects – you get the trolls who think it’s acceptable to leave a nasty or hateful comment on a photo / video or blog post. But then you also get kind-hearted, gentle souls who support and uplift each other. Thank you for helping me focus on the latter. Each and every one of you have made me feel very special and loved these past few days, and I can’t thank you enough.
There are a few things I want to chat about in this blog post, so let’s go grab a cup of tea / coffee or hot choccie and meet back here in a few minutes…
The first thing I want to touch on is exactly what I’ll be taking a break from. I have noticed a few of you are under the impression that I’ll be taking a break from both vlogging AND blogging. I think some of you misunderstood and thought I’m taking a break from everything for a long time. This is definitely NOT the case. I am only taking a break from filming my YouTube videos, but I am definitely not taking an indefinite break from blogging. Blogging is my passion, a part of my daily life and I don’t see myself giving up on that for quite some time. So, you’re stuck with me for a while longer. What I meant in the blog post was that I do not want my feeling of despondency towards YouTube vlogging, to affect how I feel about blogging. Which brings me to my next point:
I’m still sick. I managed to pull myself together for our goddaughter’s christening on Saturday, which was a very special day for both Neal & I. But on Sunday morning when I woke up, it legitimately sounded like a dude was snuggling up next to Neal. My throat and chest felt very dry and my voice had changed – I now have a husky (and slightly sexy, might I add) masculine voice. We celebrated Mother’s Day with the parentals yesterday and even though I wasn’t feeling 100% (both physically and emotionally), I tried to enjoy myself the best way I could. And that included talking to Neal in an extra deep & masculine voice – it totally freaked him out! Haha!
This morning when I woke up, though, my voice was almost completely gone. I think I shall go visit the doctor because I have a hectic week ahead of me. I have a few beauty media events that I need to attend (one of which I’m flying down to Cape Town for on Thursday – just for the day), plus my friend Ashleigh is here from London and I want to see her at least twice this week. I’m feeling like dog poo but need to get better because I want to get my ‘blogging groove’ back.
I think I should take this week to relax and get better – so I won’t be very active on my Twitter or Facebook pages until next week Monday. Everyone needs a social media detox every now & again. I do, however, still want to share some happy things with you…so make sure you follow me on Instagram. I’ll be posting photos whenever I feel inspired to do so. I started using a very affordable curling iron this past weekend and I am impressed – even in my current mental state, this curling iron made me super excited & I want to share it with you (it retails for R 249,00 but is on sale now for R 199,00) – how often do you find a good quality curling iron at that price!? I’ll be posting a photo of it on my Instagram tomorrow – you can follow me on Instagram here.
I find organising my working- and living space helps a lot when I’m feeling overwhelmed and anxious. I’m hoping to be rid of this flu bug within the next few days so that I can start my ‘declutter & organise’ project. I always have a good cleanout twice a year – during Spring and then later during Autumn. I find when I have a lot of ‘stuff’ lying around, it consumes my mind (it adds to me feeling overwhelmed) and I have trouble being creative or even just functioning like a normal human being. It’s a vicious circle, though, because when I feel anxious or depressed I have absolutely no inclination to pack things away or keep my working / blogging space organised (even though I know it will make me feel better). But those are the very things that add to me feeling overwhelmed and out of control.
You guys must think I live in a house that should be on an episode of ‘Hoarders’. It’s not that bad – haha! When I say ‘stuff’ is lying around, I don’t mean I have clothes and dirty plates scattered across the floors everywhere (I’m way too anal). I mean when I apply my makeup, I don’t put everything back in my acrylic organisers. I don’t put my makeup brushes back in their holders, so after a couple of days my whole vanity is covered in brushes, eyeshadow palettes, blushes, powders, pencils etc. Same goes for my workspace – I have pens, post-it notes, beauty products, press releases and memory sticks everywhere. And same goes for my clothes cupboard. I always feel better when I whittle down my cupboards & drawers and donate everything to charity.
It’s time for a purge. Both literally and metaphorically.
I am busy replying to all the emails and messages I have received during the past couple of days – and if you haven’t received a reply yet, sit tight. I promise I will reply to you either today or tomorrow. I am so thankful that so many of you have taken the time to share your personal experiences with me. It’s difficult for me to explain exactly what I am feeling right now but just know all your words of encouragement and love have motivated me to be strong, have hope and take time to enjoy the good things in my life. It really feels like I have gained so many new friends in such a short amount of time.
I’m on a mission to feel better, both emotionally and physically, and I will see you right here in this spot next week Monday. Bring a snack because it’s going to be my ‘April 2015 Favourites’ & it’s going to be a long one!